They shoot horses don't they ?

I went to the Doctors today. You see, some years ago while in the throes of a mid life crisis, I bought a motor bike. Not a great ravening beast of a Harley, but a modest Honda 25o. I rode one for a while when I was younger, so I guess it was Glory Days. Anyway, the inevitable happened & I fell off. Not at any great speed, about 10 km/h in loose metal to be exact. When I went down, my left foot took the weight of the bike care of the chain sprocket landing on it. I broke a couple of bones in my foot. My first experience of plaster was not a happy one.

Anyway, it's sore again. Quite markedly so. Hence the visit to the Dr. He's from Colorado,. hence the allusion to horses. He reckons its probably injury related arthritis & has prescribed accordingly. This is on top of things like Judes illness & my Mum in a vegitative state due to advanced senile dementia. About 4 years ago, she had to have one of her little toes amputated due to cancer. I was told at the time there was a possibility that it may have spread. Apparently it has. The home phoned the other day to tell me that she has a lump in her groin. So much for her dying peacefully in her sleep. I have made a conscious decision not to go & see her any more, because it is so upsetting & I need my energy & emotional strength to care for Jude. That doesn't mean I don't love my Mum any more, I do, but the dried up little husk that I sit & watch sleep for half an hour really isn't my Mum any more. I don't know where my Mum is. I wish I did. I love her dearly still & find the thought of her dying of cancer is one that I find very distressing.

All this makes it just that little bit harder to get through every day, but I did get at least one bit of good news:- my blood pressure is a very healthy 120 over 80. The pills I take for that go a fair way towards that, but its good news none the less. I hope that I get some good news soon. I don't think I can deal with a lot more bad news.