Sunday, November 27, 2011

My rambling pal is dead & gone

she's left me here to ramble on
if when we die, we go somewhere
bet you a dime, she's rambling there.



At round 08.30 hrs yesterday morning, quietly peacefully, at home in bed surrounded by her family. Do not grieve her passing celebrate her life, her gentle spirit, her giving nature, her love of life, music, flowers, people, cooking & gardening & last but not least me.

She went into the field of battle knowing that it was going to be a long drawn out campaign that she had no hope whatsoever of winning, but she went into it without hesitation or complaint, fought a no quarter asked or given fight & has retired from the field of battle with her flag still flying, her spirit unbroken and her love undiminished.

Judith Ellen Leslie, I salute you as a bold & true warrior. I have loved you from the day I met you & love you still... Fly in peace my beloved You deserve it...

Saturday, November 26, 2011

The Long & Winding Road

Jude has nearly reached the end of her particular long & winding road. Those of you who know her will know what an amazing battle she has fought & what a long & winding road we both have walked. She is at home & at peace now just waiting for the door to open. You my regular local readers are most welcome to drop round & spend a little time talking to her. I know she loves you all. If you are inclined, please say a prayer for those of us that can't yet follow her down the next bit of her journey. I know she will be surrounded with flowers & love when she passes.. With love, James

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Down by the river

Years ago, when Jude & I hadn't been together all that long, & we were both doing shift work, me in the Fire Service & her in the Comms section at the International Airport, on the rare days we had off together, we used to take time out. We would stop at the local bottle shop, get a nice bottle of wine & head for Western Springs. As the name implies, there is a natural spring there that used to be the water supply for Auckland. These days, its a rather lovely reserve that backs on to the zoo with a proliferation of bird life, mainly water fowl.

We would stop at The Saigon Bakery across the road & get lunch, generally pork & egg turnovers & the most beautiful filled rolls made with the beautiful crisp French style bread that only the Vietnamese seem to be able to make. By the entrance, there was always a rack, with brown paper bags full to overflowing with stale (By their standards) bread. Lunch, wine & duckfood safely in hand we would wander off round through the meandering paths around the lake. Not for us the clamoring yammering ducks geese & swans that would trample over their little ones in an effort to gorge themselves & to hell with their babies.

We found this tranquil little clearing way round the back of the lake, where if you sat quietly on the grass & ate your lunch, you were rewarded with a family of very shy & cautious Pukekos that would tentatively poke their heads out of the reeds around the clearing. If you were patient, they would come right up to you & take the bread very carefully from your fingers, a rare privilege to experience. But would they bolt it down & clamour for more ? Not on your life. They would walk back to the reeds, very carefully remove the morsel from their beaks with one of their spiny red feet & gently feed their little ones with it, who had obviously been told very firmly by Mum to "Stay exactly where you have been left or else !" Only when they had sated the little ones hunger would they proceed to eat their own fill.

We swapped our trusty small wheeled wheelchair for a conventional one last week. Jude's general condition & the weather meant that we didn't get a chance to road test it until the week end, so we headed of for the reserve at the riverside well within leisurely strolling distance, with a bag of stale bread & the little dog plodding dutifully beside. The new chair is much easier to manage & we arrived there, to the delight of the ducks, in fine shape. There is a little picnic table there in the shade of a tree, so I parked her wheelchair so that I could sit beside her with my arm around her & feed the ducks. I happened to look across at her to see tears streaming down her face. My face was wet as well. I said to her, "Are you remembering our days at The Springs as well ?" She nodded. We both sat there & cried for days gone. Whispa broke the spell by making one of her rare sallies after the the ducks from her lair under the table. By that time all the bread was gone, so reluctantly, we set course for home.

Friday, November 04, 2011

Can I smell my Lilacs please ?

Jude as I guess you know, before this accursed illness, was an avid & loving gardener. I'm doing my best to look after her beloved plants, but its an uphill battle. One of her most prized plants is a Lilac tree that in spite of my worst efforts so far, ( I haven't got to that garden yet & the base of it is smothered with Wandering Jew & that dreadful sticky creeper,) is an absolute picture of blossom. Colleen, our care giver, invades the garden every so often & makes up a vase full of flowers & puts it where Jude can see it from her chair in the lounge. The current bunch, which is in a beautiful light green glass vase that was one of my Mum's wedding presents, consists of some of her early roses with some of her precious Lilac.

Anyway, tonight we were sitting watching TV tonight & i saw her typing away on her Ipod. When she held it up, I read, "Can I smell my Lilacs please ?" I got up, went & got the vase for her & held it so that she could smell it. I must admit that the smell of Lilac in the evening is something to be treasured. She sat there inhaling the fragrance with tears streaming down her face. It struck me that it was so incredibly sad to have the ability to get up, walk outside & bury your face in fragrant blossom taken away from you. I held it there as long as she wanted then put it back on the coffee table. I must admit to a surreptitious wiping of my own eyes as well.

Our power company sent us a letter to inform us that they were going to be cutting our power for 5 hours on the 17th. of this month for maintainance, & if this presented a problem, to contact them. So I did, naively expecting them to front with a generator, but no. Their best suggestion was to go somewhere there was power. I nearly suggested somewhere THEY could go, but kept my cool. So I got to thinking. What would happen if we did have a major power outage like the one not so long ago that lasted 3 days ? So I am currently searching Trade Me for a 230 volt generator. There are quite a few there at the moment. Not surprisingly, a lot from Christchurch.

I went to the doctors today with a list. Most of which was for Jude. her current pain relief regime hasn't been doing its job lately, so I figured a review was in order. The acquisition of a rather ingenious pill crusher has opened up the range of medications substantially, so we have had major changes. Hopefully tonight will tell. She has gone straight off to sleep tonight without her usual 2 or 3 requests for suction, which is very hopeful. Maybe a good night's sleep is in the offing. God knows we both need it....